Putting Some Thoughts Together!

It is sometimes hard to be creative when our contact with the outside world is limited.  I remember when my children were little and I would be at home all day with them by myself.  Their Dad was off working so hard to provide for us that he often spent twelve hours a day on his job.  I would literally meet him at the door upon his arrival home and practically throw the baby at him, why?  I felt I was disappearing as a person.  I longed for adult conversation and something other than the mundane need to feed and keep another human being clean and safe.  Now, with Covid 19,  I could very easily slip into wondering if there is any reason to get dressed, to continue on with what I called the normal everyday of life.  In the midst of all of this I have made a discovery....at my age we might all applaud and say its about time.  My thoughts today ran to the principle of scripture that says I must die to myself if I really want to live.  All of THIS life I have lived and am living has been aimed at one Eternal Thought....to live I must die.  Die to what? My own selfish desires to be creative, to be ever learning, to success as I have defined it for myself, to be liked, even to be loved, to find my place of value in society, to make a difference, to leave a legacy and finally to be valued by others.  I must surrender with joy to the Sovereignity of the Almighty God.  It is in the totality of submission that I find HIM, the author and giver of life.  True life that produces honesty, respect, gentleness, self-control, love, joy, peace, goodness, meekness, temperance, humility, kindness, understanding and compassion.  I started to put some thoughts together about creativity today because I have the best of intentions of writing more consistently on this blog, but I find it difficult to manage my own creativity.  I can barely manage my desire to be Christ-like above all else.  So, I will leave you to ponder this thought today, are we as followers of Christ willing to be conformed to the likeness of HIM no matter what the making process looks like?  I suggest that today that we all find the courage to be totally honest with ourselves in the light of the Sovereign rule of God!  More thoughts in a day or two if I can manage to put them together creatively or elsewise.