Sometimes our thoughts are better left untold!

Sometimes our thoughts are better left unsaid, at least that is a good excuse as to my more than a weeks absence of writing on my blog. I have had so many thoughts it has been difficult to sort them all out. There are moments when I think I have the mind of Christ on a subject but all too soon I find that is not the truth. I heard a famous preacher say the harder the future the more difficult the decision to surrender to God's way is. I do not want that to be the case in my life, I want to enter into the way God has for me....I am desperate to find HIS place for me in this life. Vague ministry is not something I enjoy, neither is the denial of what I am called to do with a passion. If God is not going to release the calling could HE at least remove the desire. All of this babbling to most of you and thus you now understand why I have been hesitant to blog. I have moved through some trememdous wounding in the past few days and realized that if God does not rise to my rescue, there will be no rescue; I will not destroy others in order to save myself. Now, that leaves lots of questions in your minds doesn't it? I am sure all of you can relate to incidents where you are accused and even blamed for things that you had no part in...what do you do? People's perspectives become their realities; interesting enough their perspective is often skewed by their emotions. Having said all that, explanations are sometimes vain and lack usefulness. Only God can change the hearts of men and that is why the scriptures exhort us to pray for those who dispitefully use us and to pray for our enemies.....it frees us from offense and allows God to deal with the other person. God you do what you do best, deal justly! I want to be made in HIS likeness and sometimes I must enter into sufferings in order to be made. I have rambled on quite sufficiently for one night. Look for more thoughts in the next day or two. NONA