A Vareity of Thoughts!

Popa and I were visiting a friend in Sheridan, Oregon, when we got a call that our grandson was in the ER in Mayberry with some very disturbing news. It appears that an x-ray showed a suspicious spot on his hip...add that to his inability to walk and well he was transported by ambulance to a hospital in Portland. Stress, stress, and more stress! Popa and I were devestated as we drove to ER trying to reach our little guy so we could kiss him and pray over him before the ambulance took him north. We prayed every selfish prayer a grandparent can pray when their off-spring is sick. IT is very difficult to pray "if it be your will" when the outlook is dismal. We did get to see our little prince and pray over him...it was very comforting to see him with our own eyes, to see his shy little grin and to hear his little boy phrases. I must say this little guy loves his Popa and was delighted to see him. It was very hard on Popa and I to see our daughter and her good husband suffer through this experience. What do people do in crisis without God? After a lot of blood test and exams by specialists our little guy was sent home without a diagnosis. The doctors don't know, one doctor said on Tuesday he was not the same little boy he had seen on Monday evening. Prayer does work! At his check up on Thursday they think it is synovitis caused from post viral trauma, it causes arthiritis type symptoms and is self limiting. Providing the symptoms abate in the next couple of weeks and our grandson has no more problems walking the ordeal will be part of his history. On Monday night at the hospital I began to feel like my back was "going out" and sure enough by Wednesday morning I was almost unable to stand up. After two days in bed I went to the doctor today and found out I have severe muscle spasm and needed two prescriptions and physical therapy. I did have a revelation this week in the middle of life as it was swirling around me. I tried to bargain with God, HE doesn't bargain, Popa offered his life for the life of our grandson, God doesn't make trades, I tried to pray "if it be possible let this cup pass", God is not detoured in HIS plans, I did pray "thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven" hoping against all hope HIS plan did not entail the loss of my grandson....and then smack in the middle of my I need to pray frenzy...I asked God to heal not because our family has been through enough, not because we would serve HIM no matter what...but simply because HE IS GOD...HE IS IN CONTROL....and because HE CAN! My thoughts all boiled down to one thought...GOD is GOD, there is no other, HE alone hold the keys to life and death. So, for all of you who are facing difficult days, God is God, HE is more than able to accomplish what concerns us today. More later, Nona