Nona's back?

Don't faint, after an absence of more than a month I will attempt to blog and share my thougts. I have found myself in a deep profound sadness that I cannot explain. It is often difficult to share in the seasons of emotional and spiritual barrenness. Some say that there is not barrenness when we are still serving God and others. Yet, I find that the despair of the soul often has nothing to do with what we are doing but more to do with lack of satisfaction in our inner most being. I do not have answers to any of the above...I like you must simply trust in an all powerful God who first loved me. Maybe my soul is asking where do I belong? Have I run a good race? Is there still more for me to do for the Kingdom of God? Is the frustration part of God Almighty's process to provoke me on in the destiny HE has for me? My eldest daughter is moving closer to Popa and I, in fact she will be exactly 77 miles from us. We had her 3 children until last night when her eldest was overcome with a need to be with her mommy. Auntie drove her home and left us with the twin boys. They are a delight, loving to swim and eat, they can chow down for three year olds. So, I am busy, but busyness is not the answer to the longing in my soul....so I have decided like the Psalmist to encourage myself in the Lord. HE has all the answers to my longings and I will rehearse for myself HIS loving kindness and tender mercies. May each of you find yourselves basking in HIS love today. NONA